endless memories ; one and only

nocturnal

2010-09-20T18:20:00.002+08:00

oh well, should i just say i've been leading a nocturnal lifestyle for more than a month? ever since i left the previous job, life has been sleeping at wee hours, and waking up at evening. oh shuckz. can't help it seriously.

yesterday was an exciting day cause we caught MAN U - LIVERPOOL at sinming and omggawd, the match was ultimately exciting. hahaha first time i get to see liverpool really perform, mega tributes to Lucas for not getting to play. hahaha

soccer craze, i like.

returned from hiatus

2010-09-17T14:07:00.003+08:00

it's been about eleven months since i last published an entry here. sudden desire to head back to blogspot because i missed spending time with my online diary way too much. haven't been blogging since the start of the year? hahaha

anyway, life's now pretty slack where i'm indulging in my 'No work for now' policy, and just plain enjoying my life away, be it sleeping or spending with friends, and of course, dar. pretty hyped up cause i just gotten myself a hp notebook yesterday, so i'm enthu in blogging once again. hahaha

today's gonna be an exciting day of sports with dar and daniel:) be back for more later.

2009-10-25T06:40:00.001+08:00

HATE THAT I LOVE YOU SO.

evolhtnevele.

2009-10-15T05:07:00.004+08:00

let's not leave ourselves with no way out, let's not cross that line.

ROCK IT

2009-09-30T00:46:00.005+08:00

HTTP://THELIVINGMASQUERADE.TUMBLR.COM/

TOTALLY LOVING IT.
BUT DONT WORRY, I'LL STILL POST HERE ONCE IN A WHILE TOO :]
LIKE THE FORMAT THERE HAHAHA
I WONT BOYCOTT YOU BLOGSPOT.
LOVES

CL TANG, JERRY TANG. HAHAHA

2009-09-29T04:07:00.003+08:00

BROTHER,
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY :]
THANKS FOR ALWAYS HELPING ME UP WITH THINGS[LIKE TODAY],
AND BEING THERE FOR ME WHEN IM UPSET.
HAHAHA DO ENJOY YOUR BIG DAY TODAY,
I'LL SEE YOU LATER FOR DINNER.
HAVE FUN AND DONT FUCKING EMO ALREADY.
REMEMBER THIS.
GOOD THINGS FALL APART SO THAT BETTER THINGS CAN FALL TOGETHER :]
ENJOYYYYY.

postscript. the bike ride home by aaron was breathtaking. ultra shiok but scary!

happy birthday loves

2009-09-28T14:59:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHANG JINGYI.
GONNA MEET YOU ON SUNDAY :]
CAN'T WAIT AND MISS YOU BABE.
LOVE YOU.

sidenote. happy birthday to BOTAK NG JIAHAO & EVELYN too :]

till the day my life is through, this i promise you.

2009-09-28T03:46:00.003+08:00

and so,
i'm really gonna revamp my life
and keep to that particular promise months ago.
definitely a challenge but a promise is a promise.
i'm gonna prove to you that PROMISES ARE NOT MEANT TO BE BROKEN.
trying my best, the results would show.
kick off bad habits, healthy life would follow.
ziyan always does great wonders,
this i could assure you :]
deadline 03 OCTOBER 2009.

still holding on to this song.

2009-09-27T14:41:00.002+08:00

it's been the longest time since i ever started updating about my life for the past weeks. somehow or rather, there's just so much on my mind but i just can't get it off. hahaha pardon the blabbering cause my thoughts are seriously mixed up. firstly, the red hair that is living with me now, definitely is bringing me luck. be it during mahjong times[which i totally won more than 120] or be it just normal stuffs, i started to look at things with a different perspective, and realizes that my life aint that fucked up as i once perceived. credits to the hair :]

next, would be my sister's solemnization which happened yesterday at one degree 15, at marina cove. definitely a nice location with all the yachts just beside us. pretty scenery, good atmosphere, what's best is, the wedding ambiance there. HAHAHA pretty bride, handsome groom. exchange of vows, pronounced married [: mummy teared, awww that's sad hahaha. now this couple is off for mini honeymoon, wish them well. pictures will be up once the photographer gives them to them, and when angel'n passes some to me [:

at night was grandma's birthday celebrations. aww damn tired please. having two occasions in a day, i swear i just died on my bed once i reached home. and now, after sleeping for more than 12 hours, i'm still damn sleepy. but what to do, i still got two sessions of tuition waiting for me. aww shit. okay, i shall be off now. im damn tired.

bubble tea ain't my cup of tea, this i'm fucking sure.

2009-09-25T03:15:00.005+08:00

apparently in life,
some are just inculcated with the talent of mind fucking others.
perhaps it's time for you to hone your skills,
since you are still not on the same league as me.
but wait,
can you ever be on par with me?
this i really wonder.
seriously,
i'm kind of tired winning every single round,
so bring it on please.
i'll be more than happy awaiting for your challenge once again[:

the silent whispers

2009-09-14T05:05:00.006+08:00

There's not much meaning left to still stay in contact with the cyber world. After all that had occurred, guessed it's time to really take a break, to set aside a duration to revamp myself. Blogging seems to lose it's meaning to me now, and i don't like the feeling of updating about my present doings. Perhaps one day when I'm overwhelmed with joy and laughter, I would patronize thelivingmasquerade.blogspot once again. So readers, don't bother checking out this redundant space cause there won't be anymore updates for now. Till then, take care.

With love,
girl.

I've fell too far and way too deep

2009-09-14T00:08:00.001+08:00

Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you are the one
to build me up and tear me down.
Hahaha, mega joke, annoyed with myself cause once again,
I've screwed things up again.
This time, it's over love.

it's your big day kwan.

2009-09-10T04:24:00.003+08:00

MS ELIZABETH CALAMASHI JANE KWAN LI XING.

dearest darling,
it's your big TWENTY today, like finally.
first and foremost, wishing you a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY[:
seriously, i really thanked God for giving me such a bestfriend,
for you are always a call away when i needed comfort,
for you are always there to accompany my emotional moments,
slacking at east coast park, indulging in greentea and cancer sticks,
plus our favourite parkway tom yum steamboat,
you never fail to perk me up each time.
still remember what our sec 4 chinese teacher wrote on her card for you,
' wo zhen de bu ming bai wei shen me ni hui he ziyan HUN zai yi qi'
and our 'OOPS SORRY', tutor edgar moments LOl
let's work hard together and open our MEGA STEAMBOAT DELIGHT one day[:
hahaha love you darling.

your ever annoying love,
ziyan[:

sentimental old song

2009-09-10T04:19:00.001+08:00

早知道傷心總是難免的　你又何苦一往情深
因為愛情總是難捨難分　何必在意那一點點溫存

Where's the sun to light up our lives? Why dim?

2009-09-10T03:03:00.002+08:00

Just when I thought all's over,
just when we were alright again,
I had to totally screw things up again.
I'm sorry, I really didn't mean it.
You should know, I'm sorry.
Perhaps...
( I really don't wish to continue this sentence)
sorry boy.

'stronger better faster' cougar's motto, I'll learn.

2009-09-05T23:36:00.004+08:00

stubbornly waiting for the wind to bring you back.
stubbornly waiting for the sea breeze to bring you back on shore.

Somebody call 911

2009-09-04T18:00:00.002+08:00

Somehow it's good I don't feel a thing,
no apetite, though the irritating stomach is constantly grumbling.
Hahaha perhaps I can shed some weight off like that?
I like it :]

our first ever major uproar today, who has the last say?

2009-09-04T01:40:00.008+08:00

EASTCOAST to indulge in the ever cooling sea breeze is what i love to do the most. i seriously yearn to build my house next to the sea, cause i love the gorgeous scenery, the beautiful sight. i just love everything related to the sea[: it's always the sea that is able to cheer me up, yeah this time even haggen dazz ice-cream didn't help a single bit. i took a few scoops and was more depressed cause it felt bitter, and no longer sweet. i dont know how long i can put up with all these, i dont know how i should go about dealing with it. boy you know i'm seriously not strong at all, you know my threshold is low, i cannot tolerate it. much as you are pissed with the uproars, it's not as if i'm not. it's not as if i'm not suffering from any kind of heartaches too. maybe it's just me. i seriously don't know. anyway, i'm sorry for ranting and quarrelling with you, i guessed we were both equally pissed. should we have taken a step back? no, i know we both wont. hahaha. oh well, let's just see what God plans next for us then. never ending cycle, you know it, because everything has reached its peak, where the bands are being broken, so let's just see if we're able to fix back everything again. nights boy.

postscript. dropped a coin in the sea, and make your wish. and all i ever wish is to go back to the days without quarrels.

@ 5.14am
everything's fine now i supposed, sorry for the misunderstandings boy. ]: but if only you could sit down and slowly explain every single thing to me? i'm having mixed feelings about everything now. confused is the word.

Upset.

2009-09-02T22:43:00.008+08:00

Happiness is like a thin sheet of ice,
so fragile, so vulnerable.

Postscript. I so wanna watch the time traveller's wife , phobia2, and all the ghost movies!!!(:

you're all out to give teachers hell

2009-09-01T23:42:00.003+08:00

Dillon Lee,
happy 20th birthday [:
hope you had a good time in Thailand okay?
3 months later, and I will see your 'handsome' face once again!
Don't worry, I will build you your dream money house!
Hahaha
take care dude:]

postscript. I'm in love with that $120 dress! I'm gonna get it get it tml(:

mega updates, away for too long.

2009-08-31T16:44:00.006+08:00

oh well, had been disappearing from the cyber world for way too long, and that leaves my friend in thailand complaining. HAHAHA been pretty caught up with stuffs lately, so here's the update for the week's disappearance[:

wednesday night.
work then, butterfact with andrew and his friends. after which his friend drove us back to andrew's place to get the car and off we went to dillon's place, to send him off to changi airport.

thursday.

reached airport bout 6, had breakfast together and not long after, it's like 6.40am and dillon has to check in already. aww, there goes my friend taking the plane to thailand, and will only be back 3 months later!!! ]:

friday.
i seriously forgotten what i've done the whole day, probably it's spending in front of my cable tv? hahaha only to remember the quarrel with sister which led to me walking out of the house]: in the end, stayed over at ken's place for the night.

saturday.

mahjong with family and i won $40. after that, headed down to sinming ave with angel'n, zhiwei and ken for prawning session. at first, it was kind of boring cause i didn't get to catch any, and had to wait there like some loser? hahaha but in the end, i caught 3 okay, of which i totally swing my rod too high and hit some random people? HAHAHA zhiwei was the ultimate, for catching so many many prawns please. after that, barbecued the prawns and began our feast, and then it was like 5 plus am, and we headed home where i totally just doze off in the car. hahaha

sunday.
slept the whole damn day away, mahjong and i lost $40. oh well, sat win 40, sunday lose 40, totally offset the amount, ah shit, i didnt win a single cent out of it. ahhahaha. pretty sian luh.

today.
just woke up not long ago and it was online chatting with mr dillon, for i've miaed too long AHHAHA aww it's gonna be your birthday tomorrow!! have fun celebrating in thailand, i will wish you happy 20th tonight[:

any turning point?

2009-08-26T01:14:00.004+08:00

x buffet @ grand copthorne waterfront hotel
x pub

today.
x sakae sushi for dinner
x turning point, quite a nice show[:

more updates later.

smashing saturday

2009-08-23T23:20:00.003+08:00

tuition took up half of my day,
well it's back to committing myself for full force tuition once again :]
kids' exams are around the corner...
after that,
headed down to meet jeff at borders which totally made me crazy
cause seeing the million billions numbers of books there just stressed me out!
HAHAHA
then it was time for DILLON'S FAREWELL PARTY @ GOODWOOD PARK.
with the blasting music,
mega chatting,
card gaming,
sucking of helium balloons,
and of course, our best friend, alcohol,
we all had a great time there[:
pictures and videos will be up soon,
just too lazy to upload them now. hahaha

funny conversation bout 7th month*
Martin: what happens if you were to see ghost at night?
ziyan: scared until die luh
Martin: just kan the ghost only, hiong hiong kan, say don't disturb me, limbei sleeping, then the ghost will go away.
HAHAHAHA i died laughing.

the scarred eyebrow

2009-08-19T21:45:00.002+08:00

the picture and title of the post says it all.
thanks to my carelessness,
i was admitted to east shore hospital last night to have my wound treated.
the doctor GLUED my wound together,
bandaged it up and off i go with the treated wound.
HAHAHA
it still hurts somehow, am feeding on painkillers now.
pretty upset, pretty sway,
this must be the reason why my right eye has been twitching for the past few days.
premonition?
i still thought right eye twitching will be a good sign.
what a waste ]:

it's been so long, that i haven't seen your face.

2009-08-17T17:07:00.002+08:00

coming here with a heavy heart, i just can't seem to blabber on. with thousands things i wished to say, but the confused brain just got stuck somehow. can't seemed to really express myself lately, i wonder what the fuck is wrong. nothing, but tears flowing down the cheeks, to relieve the stress and agony. i wonder why i'm taking it so badly, i thought i was strong before. perhaps human do change overtime, perhaps the strong would become weak, maybe that's what is happening to me? or perhaps, i was fragile right from the start? i hate to be this emotional, i hate to be labelled as 'emo', i hate to be reminded of the past where you go on saying 'girl, please don't emo.' oh wells, for this is the route i've chosen, i shouldn't keep holding on to the past. whatever hardship it takes to straighten this crooked path, whatever tears i have to drop to heal this bleeding wound, i would endure.

Random scribbling during tuition .

2009-08-14T00:01:00.000+08:00

Guessed it's time to move on,
guessed it's time to let go.
But to move on from what,
but to let go of who?
Such contradicting questions,
such recurring thoughts.
Who could answer? Who could explain?
Maybe one day I would find a clue?
Maybe one day I would heal this wound?
But wait,
just when would the one fine day arrive?
This I wonder, I ponder, I surrender.
Thus, if falling in love would be such great tragedy,
then I would rather wish love never once occurred
in my fucking dictionary.
- tayziyan

total ownage, beyond godlike.

2009-08-12T15:51:00.007+08:00

[EDITED @ 13 aug 13:23]

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***
not worth it.

national day celebrations

2009-08-09T23:25:00.002+08:00

like always, national day is always spent with heibais. however, this year we weren't that patriotic to be dressing up in the shades of red or white[excluding bana and hanafi], nor did we go all the way to marina to watch fireworks. celebration was done at k-gardens, spending hours singing till our voices, or should i say nigel's, went coarse. HAHAHA. pretty well done.

after that, headed back home and caught singapore idol. damn cock i swear. like it only[: supposed to be meeting brotherhood, but nah soccer's not for me. attempted to catch a movie but it's all fully booked. idea to club but i'm just too tired for it. aww fuck, so much for a public holiday tomorrow. shit.

somehow i'm feeling empty within, and i wonder why. is it cos of you?

good old clubbing days

2009-08-08T04:51:00.004+08:00

the past two nights were massive, or should i say this week had been a rebellious one? where i'm never home before 4am, probably due to the one week confinement at home, credits to h1n1[=

[all for the dollar note cup game!]

impromptu decision to cab down to dillon's place to slack around last night, before heading down to meet loongwei, after which andrew picked us up to his place for a drink. oh well, stupid me decided to play the stupid dollar note game with them, which landed me in deep shit for having to drink up the whole cup of chivas. totally wtf): left his place bout 3 plus where we decided to walk to loongwei's place, and my body gave way... depressing huh. after sleeping for like 2 hours [in which dillon claims!], ken picked me up and send me home. i'm sorry boy for puking on your shirt.

[preparing for clubbing]
slept all the way till 2pm and headed over for tuition, followed by dinner at 85 with mr dillon. bumped into MR WEE, which was such coincidence for i've not seen him for god knows how long. HAHAHA back to his place for him to prepare before heading down to butterfact, where we queued for an hour but didn't manage to get in just because his friend's being banned]= rebel instead. alright, that's the word. clubbed all the way till 3 plus and we headed over to chinatown for supper and home sweet home.

awesome two nights out, like it only. tomorrow's gonna be another exciting one, i wished[=

smashing good tuesday

2009-08-05T14:05:00.002+08:00

finally, a week has passed and i'm free to roam around the streets, head to all my favourite nightspots, without the usage of any mask. h1n1, go far far away from me(:

yesterday was a complete blast.
x ajisen @ plaza sing with mummy and angel'n
(spicy crayfish ramen, shiok only. but caused me a stomach upset!)
x met up with dillon and waited for his friends
x katong ktv
(shiok ah, we sing until damn song only please! his friends were jokers!!)
x mahjong with dillon and his brother
(3 person mahjong, shiok only. i'm ultimate winner, ehem!)
x breakfast @ old airport road
x butters lululu on my iphone
x back to his place to slack
finally home at 11am, fun only. enjoyed(:
feeling shagged now, off to sleep cos there's more to come tonight[:
LIKE IT ONLY.

tell me when can we wake up from this nightmare

2009-08-01T15:55:00.003+08:00

life now is just about sleeping and online shopping.
mega shiokness and i'm recovering fast.
like it only! tamiflu tablet rocks!!
sometimes, we just dont seem to understand each other.
don't seem to know what we want from each other.
ironical huh...

it's damn accurate please!!!

2009-07-30T17:10:00.002+08:00

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

H1N1 is confirm no fun.

2009-07-30T15:43:00.003+08:00

quarantined.
ONE WEEK MC.
fever, cough, flu, body ache, headache, giddy, all tio liao.
kan sway i swear.
the feeling of being sick totally suck!
took the tamiflu tablet, and puke like twice due to its side effect.
oh gawd!!):
i can only step out of my house like next thursday,
which i will totally die.
depressing X one millon times!!!
imagine having to wear a mask like 24/7. cb!
MGEA SIAN.

i don't want to be sick anymore

2009-07-29T04:16:00.002+08:00

just back from slacking at eastcoast,
and i'm totally feeling damn sick.
running a temperature, having a leaking nose,
and now i totally feel like puking(which i dunno why!),
the feeling is just gross.
gonna pop two panadols and get into deep sleep,
just hope that all the sickness will be gone by tomorrow(:
i pray hard.

oh crap, shit happens

2009-07-29T00:37:00.003+08:00

Tay ziyan is sick as in really sick ):
all thanks to TANKEEYONG.

didn't turn up for TANCHIEHSHENG'S 20th birthday celebration,
I'm sorry dude, will make up to you soon!
hope you have an enjoyable day okays!
you'll always be my bestest best brother [:

pangsehed LEERENJIE for the countless time,
I'm sorry ]: Mai angry kays!
I will recover fast!(:

I'm off to rest now, buay tong liao. nights .

a lack of updates

2009-07-24T15:13:00.005+08:00

been really packed with work, tuition and TDS that i haven't had any chance of blogging. and so, now that i'm free at my workplace, here i am to give a little updates of my fun-filled life(:

monday

x 85 with dillon to satisfy his cravings but sadly, the authentic bachormee stall decided to close for the day. HAHAHA
x soft comfortable sofa that allowed me to catch some sleep. like it only
x ratchada where jeff was already waiting for us
x drink and drink.
x 3am, roamed around orchard and i discovered i lost my keys!!!
(si dillon, took it and then lie to us! HAHHAA)
x mac donald's for breakfast

tuesday
i forgot wtf i did on tuesday alr. HAHAHA
short term memory, can't blame

wednesday
x back to work, aww mega shiokness.
(msn, fb whole day! lagi song song gao jurong!)
x tuition
x 511 with jason and weiquan

x old airport road to meet dillon
x ratchada with his friends.
(fun luh, five-ten, clapclap game, scissors paper stones!LOL)
x bangkok thai
(this thai girl gave me one ring siah. mega LOL)
x left quite early, his friend drove me home.

thurday
x work
x tuition
x slept at about 9 plus pm. totally wtf!
(sorry to pangseh leerenjie. HAHAHA one last chance!)

friday
x now that im working, im totally enjoying it.
and it's really TGIF PLEASE. mega tiredddd.
more updates tonight(:

DETEST IT.

2009-07-20T01:18:00.001+08:00

PMS MEGA PMS.
STOMACH CRAMPS.
FUCK IT.

club ratchada.

2009-07-18T21:45:00.000+08:00

summarized friday night.

met up with miss kwan at 85 for dinner to satisfy all our cravings for ba chor mee, stingray, fried oysters coupled with ice sugar cane. aww, mega shiokness. after that, we cabbed over to siglap to meet dillon and we headed off to ice-cream chef. queue was horrendous, but it's worth the wait(: slacked awhile before dillon and i cabbed over to heeren for club ratchada. HAHAHA fun luh, bumped into zhengkai there and caught up a bit, before we left for sabai sabai, which ended up being quite boring, and to our last stop, resort, where i met my long lost friend, jose. HAHAHA left about 4.30am, and conference with jeff and martin till 5 plus am before i fell into deep sleep. funny how conferencing has become our trend where jeff, dillon and i also indulged in conferencing the previous night. hahaha like it only(:

swiss air cust svc

2009-07-15T18:01:00.002+08:00

favourite song*

anyways, went for job interview today and i fucking got the job! yes luh, good income, slack job, can facebook and msn when i'm free. ahh yes luh! like it only(: i'm a happy girl today. HAHAHA

what do i want?

2009-07-15T00:55:00.004+08:00

dinner @ ikea was fabulous.

postcript. and i'm going to make a major decision now, which involves my further studies. stuck at the crossroads, i think i will go for the latter?

awesome exposure, great experience.

2009-07-13T17:27:00.000+08:00

didn't get a chance to blog throughout the weekend cause i was really caught up with entertainments. HAHAHA like it only please. been busy with friends and enjoying myself to the max. life now just totally rocks, i swear(:

friday was a hyped up day where dillon and i went 7 places within the short span of 5 6 hours? HAHAHA we're beyond godlike already. hahaha nana was the first destination where we finished up his bottle and headed over to ratchada to meet the rest of the millennias. HAHAHA the catching ups, drinkings plus pool games equates to pure highness. next headed over to the new thai disco at heeren to find martion, enjoy only. hahaha then down to 72 and sabai sabai, not really that nice after all, so we went over to our favourite place, resort(: bumped into his uncle there, HAHAHA funny only. so we hang out with them, where they brought us to the living room @ Marriott hotel, highness with great music, before we decided to park ourselves at our last destination, clarke quay's ktv. HAHHAHA happening night i swear, like it only.

homed at about 7 plus am, slept. saturday was spent with ken, slacking at home, playing monopoly card games, mahjong with family. hahaha enjoy only, cos dont need to use energy at all. rather laid back day, but shiok.

and the next thing i woke up on sunday morning, ah shit, i missed tuition once again. wtf!! HAHAHA sunday was spent at home resting, after that catching transformers(again?)with j and headed over to d's place for a drink. HAHAHA homed at 5am, slept like a log.

it's 4.45pm now, and i just woke up. 15 msgs received, 8 missed calls. what the hell, i didnt even hear it ring. perhaps the dream was ultra shiok that i blatantly didn't even bother to hear my phone. what the fuck, imagine i lup my enermy in my dream. shiok only. wanna know bout it, just ask me! HAHAHA okay, i shall be off to meet mummy at parkway for thai steamboat. like it only! mega transformation to a thai. i craved for tom yam goong.(:

postscript. and ken, sometimes i really don't understand you. keeping things to yourself just wouldn't work please.

ok huk, heartbreaker.

2009-07-10T00:50:00.008+08:00

last night was a hell of a blast. impromptu decision to head down butterfact with dillon, met up with jason and gang there. drink and dance for a while before we decided to park ourselves at thai disco. hahaha first time there, awesome place with great music, i swear it's far better than clubs. like it only. bumped into martin there, ai seh, bengbeng. hahaha after which, we headed over to east coast park to slack and talk all the way till 8 plus am. omggawd, swear we are beyond godlike loh. imagine the both of us didnt even feel tired at all, and was laughing at all the people who woke up so damn fucking early to do exercise at ecp. groups of taichi here and there, and there were one group of "wonder girls" in making i swear. too bad our phones died, if not sure take video(: HAHAHA

mega shagness, thus spent the whole day sleeping away, till mummy came back home with my dinner. HAHAHA bummer luhh! supposed to go nana today but was really tired. nevermind, tomorrow i promised. hahahha like it only. thai songs are kan emo please! and the fucked up JI SHI BEN that dillon sent me is awfully emotional. enjoy the mv readers(: off to continue watching south park episodes. nights.

postscript. i'm craving for tom yam goong plus rice(:

masquerade 911

2009-07-08T03:09:00.004+08:00

life's been pretty hyped up with the constant meeting up with all my loved ones since saturday. the meeting up with heibais, dyan and friends, jeff and ken. different clique per day, whether it's pure slacking, movies, emo talking or shopping, the quality time spent were simply way awesome. decided to give a missed in blabbering on the details cause i'm really exhausted and my train of thoughts had been broken and seriously, i dont know where i should start from. hahaha like it only.

did i mention i quit my job on monday after working for only an hour?
- 'i think i'm not up for it. i quit'
hahaha ultra shiokness for not needing to see that slut face anymore(: like it. bummer life, love it.

postscript. wake me up when september COMES!!! HAHAHA

not that nice after all.

2009-07-03T02:54:00.004+08:00

jailbreaked phone, checked.
coping myself at home for the past few days is like boring. imagine i can watch the same episode of drama series repeatedly throughout the day cos cable tv just loves to repeat them, i fucking know the stories inside out. hahaha just finished watching New Moon's thriller and it makes me wanna reread all my four books once again. guess that's what im going to do now cos im just bored to the max. 20th November, i will wait for the movie. 3.05 am and im still not asleep. sigh. plus my green tea is mega depleting. double sigh.

"Do you ever think that your life might be easier if you weren't in love with me?"
— Edward Cullen.
after all, i'm still in love with my EDWARD CULLEN(:

long wavy hair, I desire

2009-07-02T04:34:00.005+08:00

0434.
yet another sleepless night accompanied by the non-stop hits from the mtv channel, the ongoing songs from my itunes, i swear my mummy's electricity bill will jack up this month with me switching on the lights of my living room, kitchen, my laptop, television and all. HAHAHA she would just kill me if she were to walk out of her room like now. my head is hurting like fuck and it has been this way for many days. hate this feeling but hate to visit the doctor even more. maybe there's just too much on my mind? maybe oh maybe? but who gives a damn! laughs

half the year has past and all i could say is that the past half way was fucking wasted with numerous downfalls i should say, just taking the release of a lvls results for an example. aww fuck it, i should not mourn over 6th march anymore. anyways, guessed i should seriously set some goals for my next half of the year and stop wasting time and regret after that:
#1 Get rid of the mindset that my life is fucked up because people who think that their lives are fucked up, wouldn't go far.
#2 Really study hard and not skip school when sim starts.
#3 Keep my hair long and stop cutting it every month!
#4 Be faithful to that particular
#5 Do whatever that makes myself happy and that implies, intoxication(:

five aims is enough. wont want too many cos it's just too difficult to achieve all at one go. anyways my head is hurting once again, showing signs that i ought to be on my bed now cause my parents' gonna wake up in an hours time. aww man. i'm still not sleepy, how? screw my nocturnal lifestyle please, i'm waking up at 4 plus pm everyday. shit. besides that, it's time to head down to gym once again. tomorrow, tomorrow. okay, it's time for bed now and I'll be thinking of you tonight(:

the tigress temper

2009-07-01T04:52:00.002+08:00

maybe I shouldn't be so impulsive.
my bad.

last sentence baby

2009-06-29T02:39:00.000+08:00

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

Marilyn Monroe

shit happens, he taught me.

2009-06-28T23:53:00.004+08:00

i came here with a heavy heart wishing to blabber about whatever that had occurred last night but well, i seriously dont know where should i begin from. my mind's blank and im feeling hurt, be it physically or emotionally. however, like what kobe said, i should just move on and forget about it. maybe it's hard to forget but just need to move on lah.

anyways, im really thankful to know the 915 clique, regardless how others perceive them, i think they are damn good please. for they understand me and even counsel me about the right stuffs, try to make me not scold vulgarities(this part is damn funny pls!). wtf seriously. this form of defamation shouldn't occur to such nice bunch of people, i wont tolerate. seriously thankful to them where i just poured all my sorrows out and they accompanied me the whole night. especially kobe, who stayed with me till 6am pls, despite yawning countless times! thanks boy, you're simply awesome(: hahaha.

just slept my day away today, trying not to think of anything. didn't really talk to anyone except being on phone with jeff for a while and i just fell asleep right after that. lol just back from supper with jason at 511, thanks dude for listening to all my oh so emotional talk. aww, seriously my life is getting more fucked up day by day. nahs, im so not going to let this happen. im gonna change! im gonna believe that my life will be better off, not fucked up.

im just gonna do whatever that makes me happy already, im not caring bout how others feel. if drinking makes me happy, i'll drink. if clubbing makes me happy, i'll club. if meeting friends make me happy, i'll just meet. just as simple as that. no more complications, im not gonna be a thinker anymore!

depressingly, im down with cough and flu): and i dont like the feeling.
'stop and stare, i think im moving but i go nowhere' - it just keeps repeating in my mind. his voice.

stop and stare, i think im moving but i go nowhere.

2009-06-27T18:15:00.008+08:00

his voice is constantly repeating in my mind,
and i don't know why.

people who thinks their lives are fucked up, wont make it big.

2009-06-27T17:03:00.004+08:00

impromptu decision to meet lixing on thurday night. the indulgence of sea breeze, green tea as companion just made us felt much better after 7 hours of emo talking. oh well, it was definitely a memorable night for we really talked about every single details of our lives. LOL

friday was a rather busy day. tuition and then off to marina square for work at prudential roadshow. pretty easy job and good money, just have to pull people into the booth. bumped into many friends there, abel, weiming, sabrina, kubo. hahaha it was definitely good catching up with them(: work ended late, zhiwei dropped me at boon keng and i decided to meet up with zhang for a little talk before proceeding down to meet wc for a drink hahaha. oh well, my drinking buddy's forever talking cork to make me laugh LOL. at least i knew i wasn't feeling emotional last night. home about 4am credits to the best driver ever, and i just went into dreamland without bathing HAHAHA.

apparently, it's 5.10pm and i just woke up not long ago. ditched work today mainly caused im tired plus im feeling a little sick. having flu is no joke please, cos the feeling sucks big time. guessed i will stay home tonight, sorry for not going night safari with heibais. im off.

it's alright, it's ok. the perfect song, no.

2009-06-26T04:42:00.009+08:00

It's alright, okay
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
Alright, okay
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I won't return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
Alright, okay
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry

***
conversation between lixing and i.
lixing: i think my life is fucked up.
ziyan: if your's is fucked up, then what is mine?
lixing: even more fucked up. HAHAHA

oh well, true. just came back from pasir ris beach. the indulgence of green tea plus sea breeze are perfect companion i should say. thought through many things tonight, and oh well, im still unable to come up of a perfect solution. 4.46am, and im still not sleeping. screwed up. frankly speaking, it's NOT alright, it's NOT okay, im so NOT much better without you. fuck!

yes you're enjoying , without me.

2009-06-25T02:50:00.003+08:00

seventy-two hours without a puff, im proud of myself. though it's really hard to resist seeing others smoking in front of me, im glad i was able to pull it through. im sorry for ditching two groups of people for clubbing tonight, especially darling joei and dyan. will make it up to you two soon enough okay, once i've totally succeeded in my mission. sorry, for i know i will fall into the hands of cigarettes if i were to club tonight.

another day of being family girl once again. grandparents' house plus mahjong with amanda, bandar and mummy distracted my cravings towards ciggs. im really thankful lah. 3am, and i just completed the whole series of lao po da ren part 2. maybe i should start watching other dvds so time would pass faster? laughs.

anyway, im sorry for not meeting any of my friends up, caused i seriously need to kick the bad habit off me. hope you people understand as i will be super vulnerable given the fact that 90% of my close friends are all smokers. hahaha but i still love you all. miss you guys please(: we will meet up soon, I PROMISED. off to watch the confessions of a shopaholic now. last but not least, there's a lot of movies that i wanna catch lah. transformers, drag me to hell and a couple more. but well... its been long since we last caught a movie. ah fuck it, i shall just give them a missed.

//*postscript. i dont like to feel this way, i dont like to view your pictures.

hate that i love you so.

2009-06-24T04:16:00.003+08:00

it has been more than 48 hours since i last touched a cigarette. parents saw the withdrawal symptoms im going through and im glad that they are fully supportive of my decision now, and they are there to bring me out and help me through these dreadful days. i'm more than determined to make this work out cause i seriously do not wish to see a tinge of disappointment in any of my family members' faces nor my closest ~~ones~~ friends.

x pizza for lunch with mummy and angel'n.
x ikea with mummy and amanda
x monopoly card games plus 'guess what i am' with family

oh yes, im turning into a family girl once again, and i love this kind of feeling. for which i know, family will be the one to catch me up when i fall, everytime and anytime. i seriously thanked God for giving me such a wonderful family although at times, they, or rather i, can be seriously fucked up. anyway, i've decided to place any form of sadness behind, and concentrate on moving on with life, for there would be not a single tinge of happiness if i were to be stuck at the same spot. perhaps i should thank j for constantly making sense to me for the past few days. i promise you i will not change from bad to worse, but be inspired to become better. i'm on a mission just like you in the past, but this time, my mission is to quit smoking and drinking. i want to be an ah lian, no more and stop calling me a butterfly. hahaha

postscript. 'i thought i could change you from a butterfly, but in the end i realized i had no magical talents to do so.' he said this to me and it leaves me to ponder, when will be the time i can settle down?

pimples breakout! too stress.

2009-06-22T19:26:00.003+08:00

this weekend i've experienced extreme fluctuations of mood swings. from tears to laughter and to anger, which somehow led me to a confusion state of mind. i seriously think, someday, i should really apply for some anger management course or emotional release course, if there is one. hahaha

anyway, emotional talks with mummy and angel'n last night for quite long, where we ended up being emotional and were tearing away. hahaha. 11.30, received a text from bana indicating her emoness, i took my bag and just cabbed down to jingyi's place to comfort her. in the end, we drank at st george's road, making a new friend, serene. well, through her we learn a lot of life stories, and it does really make sense that guys, after all, are not worth us emoing over. and of cos, drinking on an empty stomach caused me to puke massively, and i feel so sorry towards both bana and zhang! LOL

cabbed home at 7am and went into deep sleep. woke up bout 12 and headed over to vivo city(somewhere i havent been to for months!) with mummy, angel'n, grandparents and xiaogu. im a happy girl cos mum bought me a bag given the fact the my bag has given way and she threw it away): LOL shopping, having tea break, aw man, that's just life.

anyways, i'm on a mission to quit both smoking and drinking. it has been more than 24 hours since i last touch them. im sure i will be able to achieve it(: jiayou ziyan.

the eleventh, the 91****33

2009-06-20T02:41:00.008+08:00

//* postscript. i'm sorry but to treat you so coldly. i'm sorry for ignoring your texts. i'm sorry for whatever shit that had happened, but truth is, i'm hurt. i'm sorry for building a wall between us as a form of protection. i'm sorry boy, for you are indeed worth, me saying, i'm sorry. i just don't know how to carry on. as friends.

natural breeze that calms the inner soul

2009-06-20T01:46:00.006+08:00

ditched tuition today and the day was spent with miss kwan.

installed 3.0 for my iphone and it decided to play a prank on me by deleting all my jailbreaked applications and firmware. totally what the fuck, plus it can't be reinstalled again since the firmware functions have not been upgraded to suit 3.0. ah crap, i doubt any would know what im blabbering about. so in short, im just using the normal iphone (without jailbreak), like any normal iphone users. aww, it SUCKS!

anyways, kwan came over caused i was still figuring out with my phone. bathed and then we headed down to bugis for pastamania, and then bus 197 down to east coast park. it seemed like my favourite hangout now, CORRECTION. it is my favourite hangout place now. the sea breeze, the beautiful scenery, fags plus my green tea, aww how perfect can life be by just indulging in such gorgeous surroundings. i wont blabber much bout my fucked up life now, cause i seriously think it's pointless. LOL took a couple of photos, will upload them once AH G sends them to me(: anyway, it's always good to have her by my side, my loyal 4 years and counting best girlfriend.

been busy texting a few people today, and had a phone conversation with j till 1.30am, aww poor thing he only gets to book out at 10pm tomorrow. HAHAHA im mean, but i dont care!! he's so affected when he heard i started clubbing again, laughs. oh well.

anyway, i shall be off to bed like now cos i have to wake up at 7am in the morning to update my passport and tuition spree begins from 10am to 4.30pm. aww it sucks. never mind, i bet i'll have an enjoyable night out tomorrow(:

postscript. 'o. bcos from your texts to me, as a sociology student, you seemed not okay..' hahaha zhang seriously know how to make me laugh. friends, dont worry, i guessed i need time.

where were you?

2009-06-19T11:54:00.004+08:00

Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
It never rang
And all I needed was a call
It never came
To the corner of First and Amistad

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

my angel will save me on Saturday

2009-06-18T23:08:00.003+08:00

are you really that busy?
I really shouldn't let myself get so affected by you.
I shall look forward to sat!

life was never easy

2009-06-18T15:16:00.004+08:00

pretty happening life for the past two days faced with drastic mood fluctuations. perhaps it's due to pre-menstrual syndrom that i'm experiencing? but seriously, i dont care much.

tuesday was spent with little chelsea. woke up at 10am, cabbed down to her place to pick the little princess up, and she was like complaining that i was late! HAHAHA wanted to bring her to singapore flyer, but she declined): in the end, the day was spent by going to marina's arcade, liquid's cafe, zhiwei's house and explora kids @ ehub. oh gawd, the experience was indeed fun, playing all the slides with all the kids, i swear im one big kid. laughs.

wednesday, woke up early once again as tuition has resumed once again. two sessions at marine parade and then, headed down to parkway to meet bana. slacked at mac, bumped into noorie, jingyi came down, slack slack and impromptu decision to club! head home, bathe and changed, and before i realized, i was stuck at butterfact with horrendous queue. luckily smarty bana and i knew the art of cutting queue, so we were in quite fast(: bumped into justin, sherlyn and made friends with sharbana's friends. the night was indeed awesome getting intoxicated and hitting the dance floor to dance all the sorrows away. aww fuck, i'm going to touch on that topic soon. club ended bout 3, hil, bans and i headed off to mac for breakfast and then, the three awfully shagged zombies hopped onto a cab each, and home sweet home.

anyways, back to the depressing topic, aargh. maybe i shouldn't touch on it now, cause i seriously don't know how to express my feelings.

and i can't wait for saturday to come, for i know i will be happier(:
pictures will be uploaded later, i'm off.

wonderful scenario, ironical ending. what a joke.

2009-06-17T01:05:00.001+08:00

@ 17 June 09 12.24am
kenneth said, 'forget it la. stop showing me attitude pls.'
ziyan replied, 'ok. nights'

the end.

the overwhelming aura

2009-06-16T03:25:00.005+08:00

pc fair is finally came to an end,
the massive hours of workings are finally over.
nevertheless, i did enjoy myself, be it the times with lil chelsea or the ___ breaks.
slept for the longest time ever, shiok.

15 june monday.
x tuition @ kem
x dinner with mummy
x grandparents' place
x novena to meet namka for maths session
x pub to watch NBA
x east coast park with lixing
oh well, the day was well spent after all.

guessed i will be turning in soon cos i'm bringing lil chelsea out tomorrow.
time to crack my brains to think where should i bring her to. HAAHA

postscript. I'm turning into a green-eyed monster overwhelmed with jealousy):

pc fair

2009-06-13T04:16:00.002+08:00

and so, pc fair is here once again. working at playcraft selling my best product, wii console once again. fun experience, awesome company, of cos, from little chelsea whom perceived me as her nanny. the massive running around with her from one end to the other end of pc fair, from 6th floor to 4th floor, oh my god, she's just damn cute lah!! bringing her out next wednesday and we're both looking forward to it. HAHAHA anyways, im a damn slack promoter this time round, taking thousands and one breaks but my sales is still damn awesome kays(: LAUGHS

anyway, just back from meeting wc. bedok reservoir, fags plus guitar playings equates to pure indulgence. oh well, im surprised that he can sing so well. HAHAHA coming from a beng.

guessed i'll turn in really soon since it's 4.21am and im supposed to report to suntec at 10.45am. aww, another torturous yet exciting day for me. stay tuned.

how are you, i'm fine.

2009-06-10T17:30:00.004+08:00

im turning into a lazy bum, i swear!
sleeping at wee hours and waking up in late afternoon,
the nocturnal animal lifestyle has evolved in ziyan once again.

too restless for anything
too tired for anything
too distracted for anything

tomorrow will be working for it show at suntec once again.
sigh, there goes my weekend.

happening weekend

2009-06-08T23:42:00.005+08:00

friday night.
x drinking with wc, home at 6am and my daddy saw loh!! HAHAHA

saturday.
x slept for less than 3 hours
x suntec for work
( totally zonked out, enduring till the day ended)
x tamp1 to meet jason and justin then we headed off for BBQ at loyang.

sunday
x last day of work at suntec
( pretty slack, nobody at all, just plain chatting with colleagues )
x spent the whole night talking to j

monday
x phone with j all the way till my tuition at 7.
x tuition
x supper at kovan
off to sleep now, nights all!!

postscript. my life won't suck without you.

addicted to green tea.

2009-06-06T01:24:00.001+08:00

ditched work today due to plain laziness,
nua at home the whole day, shiok only(:
met up with ah g at Tamp to slack,
funny incident happened which I totally won't elaborate!!
LOL home, and now Kenneth lim just fell asleep on me on the phone,
such a pig! LOL
okay, off to bed now cos I wanna be on time for work(:
nights all.

happy days, wide smile.

2009-06-05T01:31:00.004+08:00

the commencing of work at suntec today was great.
colleagues are nice bunch of ppl,& people from other booths are funny too.
swear I'm a mega slacker(for sleeping, rotting, shitting LOL)
but a good promoter kays!
sold 1.5k worth of products today(:
met up with bans and Hanafi after work at town to chill,
den bugis to meet Angel'n and zhiwei. mega lightbulb, I know.
coincidentally, met ken on train! real coincidence!
I was still like daoing him the whole day acting angry LOL
punggol, then now I'm finally lying on my bed
tired, 3 more days of work.(:
and I love green tea now!
I gulped one bottle in my tummy when I met ken LOL
and i still got another bottle in my bag.
kays, thats all for tonight. nights.

the finale

2009-06-04T02:05:00.003+08:00

after four days of ignorance by family, we talked. things are back to normal once again and i'm really glad. after all, we share the same blood, but obviously, thy have different blood group as me since i inherited my dad's B+. hahaha nevertheless, this mega huge piece of rock has finally been lifted away from my chest. cool.

anyways, yesterday was fabulous. slacking at united square's starbucks is now like my favourite hangout place. hahaha. made new friends there, namka and chuck, awesome ones i swear. wells, last night was awesome cos we headed down to c's place for a drink by the poolside. awesome feeling, i like. five-ten, i never, all these games caused us to drink and die. LOL. massive i swear, but it was really fun, and yes with lots of hidden,or should i say exposed, secrets which miss zhang had helped in publicising. HAHAHA good night out.

back home this morning, hangover. weak shit. rest and down to starbucks again, followed by prata house. supposed to club today but well... it's okay. try harder on saturday then. LAUGHS. gonna commence work tomorrow at suntec roadshow for SKII, somehow, i dread going to work once again. i still love leading a life of a bummer. four days of work, it will be fast(: i just can't wait. off to bed now. nights

postscript. my heartbeat has been pumping real fast these days!

i know i'm at fault and i'm sorry.

2009-06-02T03:10:00.002+08:00

these days, or rather this week, ties with family had been extremely strenuous given the fact that my horrendous act(seemed to them) of smoking had been exposed after the silly decision of me to totally just smoke in front of them. come on, up till now i seriously don't know what the hell was up in my mind! screwed up totally. anger management, something that i really need. i need to calm myself down upon fuming and not do foolish acts like smoking in front of your family? what the fuck right? yes i know that. and this form of strenuous ties are dreadful because i'm ever so closed to them, the constant meeting up for dinner and stuffs, these days, purely gone. i've yet to speak to any about this, and yes, indeed i'm feeling pretty down. much as i wished to seek escapism from this mess, i'm still stuck in the same spot. going home seemed to be more of a chore now because all the warmth that i've been getting, now has faded away. all the love that i've gotten, seemed to have depleted. ignorance, the only remainder. i know i've my fault in this shit, for flaring up at my sister, and then smoking right in front of them, i do know my mistake. but sometimes, it's just hard to open that damn mouth and say a sincere word of apology. someone, please teach me? sorry doesn't seemed to be the hardest word, because to me, sorry IS the hardest word.

i'm pretty glad that i've been meeting up with friends for at least, these short hours of escapism, or so i call, grant me time to enjoy pure happiness. i'm thankful for all that i've met the past few days, if not for you guys, i guessed i would be drowning my sorrows with tears. i seriously wished for a change in situation, but i guessed it's difficult to earn back the trust that has been broken. the smoke smell that lingers around me, is the torment of my family's worries.

i'm sorry. i will quit, but just not now.
not now when everything's crashing down in my life, at least give me some avenue to escape. and in this case, smoking. sorry.

too massive, just too massive.

2009-06-01T03:28:00.005+08:00

the title explains it all.
the week had been a really massive one,
where there were numerous ups and downs,
hectic arguments, mega laughters, totally whatthefuck.

wednesday.
x man utd match
x sleptover at bana's place with jingyi
x totally ladies' night

thursday.
x bana's cafe to slack
x met up with J

friday.
x sim with dyan & joei
x lost in some random SBS bus, headed down to tamp1
x slack and chill
x waited for jason for his work to end
x playground for emotional talks

saturday.
x ice-skating with heibais

(mega laughter, lots of falling, backside pain!!! 200 photos on facebook)
x onan road for prata
x parkway parade to slack
x home. quarrelled. left. ken's place.

sunday.
x ken's place
x united square starbucks to meet jingyi
x payalebar for pool session with angel'n, zhiwei and his friends.
x finally i'm home after so long...

oh wells,
come to think of it,
this week had been an enjoyable one,
just that it was plain massive cos there were just too much happenings!!
and now,
im left with a sprained left arm.):
off to watch gossip girls now,
but wait, my air-con died on me!! sigh.
anyway,
half the year has gone...

loved by you.

2009-05-30T13:49:00.002+08:00

when these days are gone,
when all the love we gave each other slowly fades away,
when your beautiful smile is only a dream,
and when the words 'I love you' were only the scripts of the past,
I will always have memories which was once moments,
and I will always know no matter what,
I've got a chances to be loved by you.

postscript. you know what I mean.

sports day

2009-05-27T22:10:00.002+08:00

self proclaimed sports day was superbly fun(:
stayed over at zhiwei's house ystd once again,
(totally ohmygawd pls! yes, lightbulb i know that!)
night run around sengkang last night,
badminton session at sengkang cc this afternoon,
definitely a blast(:
anyways, im off for a stayover at bana's place now
and we're gonna catch the man utd match later.
nights all.

hapy 20th birthday jeff

2009-05-27T13:21:00.003+08:00

DEAR JEFF,
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY.
HOPE YOU HAVE FUN TODAY THOUGH YOU'RE STUCK IN CAMP DOING NIGHT DUTY.
HAHHAHA TAKE CARE.

WITH LOVE,
ZIYAN.

looking back?

2009-05-26T19:49:00.003+08:00

Just because people change and move on with life,
it doesn't mean that they love you any less.

of honourable promise

2009-05-26T00:59:00.004+08:00

the day was rather well spent today,
from the hanging out at punggol with ken watching 'marley and me'
to Tamp 1 with lixing,
catching up with cbc at Num,
then watching 'night at museum 2'.
the movie was awesomely funny please, good show I swear!(:
home at 12.20am, feeling tired! hahaha
sometimes it's letting go and forgoing your sanity that allows temporary happiness.

Kenneth. haiis
gek sim. (hahaha!)

loser

2009-05-24T05:06:00.000+08:00

5.06am : still awake
how loserish can you get Tay ziyan?

you can finally read this now

2009-05-24T02:37:00.002+08:00

(deleted)

if quitting you is the ideal solution for all the emotional turmoils im experiencing,
i'm sorry, for loving you.

exposed secrets.

2009-05-23T13:47:00.004+08:00

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graduation at temasek poly

2009-05-22T19:33:00.004+08:00

yesterday was an enjoable day i swear(:
#1 interview at benlux international and i got the job!
will be selling skII and Dior products next week at Suntec.

#2 headed down town for a haircut!
thanks aaron, i like the new fringe lah! hahaha

#3 kembangan to meet huijun and headed down TP for lixing's graduation
babe, pls be touched that i went hor(:!! hahaha

#4 parkway parade for steamboat

#5 East Coast Park to emo

#6 Kallang leisure park for kbox session.

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complete blast.

privatise

2009-05-21T03:31:00.003+08:00

guessed it's time to privatize my blog since I hate changing urls.
it's not like I give a damn now to anything(:

rkrkrk

2009-05-21T02:55:00.008+08:00

RK- my complete love and addiction, only heibais & probably Jason will know!
hahaha snipping my hair off tml(;
thrilling effect!

postscript. wouldn't care much even if you do.

hilmi's 22nd.

2009-05-18T15:07:00.003+08:00

hilmi's 22nd birthday celebrations was a blast.
x fort canning park
x hotel
x poker and booze
x emo chats with eddy(this happens on a yearly basis we swear!LOL)
x cabbed back at 7am.
x breakfast with family
x zonked out
x cabbed down to novena to meet hilmi,jingyi,bana and hanafi.
x emotional chats with bana at amk till 1am.
friends say at the rate i'm going, i'll probably die before 50? LAUGHS

and yes, i really want to say a very big thank you to my darlings, bana and jingyi,
im really glad to have known you two and thanks really. you duno how much it means
to me by having you two around. thanks for going through it with me lovelies.
if any words can describe my gratitude towards you both, i would give it to you two.
i love you all, from the bottom of my fucking heart!(:

rainy weather, best to sleep in.

2009-05-15T17:03:00.003+08:00

been leading a life of a nocturnal animal.
hahhaha sleeping at 4 plus am, and waking up in late afternoon.
ultra shiokness pls!

wednesday
x tuition
x ken came over

thursday
x tuition
x sushi tei @ tamp1 with mummy, amanda and angel'n.
x shopped around
x picked zhiwei and jason up and we headed off to kbox @ leisure park.

x awesome singing, mega laughing, a blooming superstar MR JASON TAN.
x home at 3plus am, off to dreamland.
that's all for now(:

Settle down ?

2009-05-13T12:53:00.004+08:00

x Sleptover at zhiwei's house on Mon night.
(funny how my parents all got a shocked cos who in the right kind of mind
would be a lightbulb between your sister and her boy?
Nevertheless, it was way awesome and home-cooked lunch was fabulous!)
x ikea to shop
x caught 17 again with Jason and jerry!
(man, the show is ultra nice and he's insanely hot! )
x tampines1 for frolick and that Jason had to dirty my jacket!);
x amk to meet Dyan and we had awesome chats till 4.40am! LOL
x homed at 5am, with no keys to enter my place hahaha
x woke mummy up, and then sweet dreams(:
This kind of lifestyle, I adore (:

should i say i miss you? forget it.

2009-05-12T04:49:00.010+08:00

led a life of a bummer today(:
x woke up only at 2pm
x tuition
x sakae @ parkway with mummy, angel'n and zhiwei
x grandma house
x pool @ parkway
x frog porridge and chili crab @ geylang
x currently uploading the genting and sunway lagoon pictures onto facebook,
they are taking way too much of my sleeping time):!
~~i'm happy with the way i am, get it?~~
correct me if i'm wrong,
but it's not as if you care, LAUGHS.

decipher the hidden codes.

2009-05-11T01:05:00.008+08:00

#1 I'm just freaking lazy to upload pictures of genting and sunway now
cos the file size are fucking big. 3 mb per pic? aww gosh! i got 400 pics know!
promised i will do it soon, since i've so much free time from now onwards.

#2 Gonna lead a life of a bummer now, like finally.
the kind of life which consists of excessive sleeping, rotting, cable tving,
eating,hanging out with friends, drinking & clubbing. spells FABULOUS(:

#3 I think there's a tendency to go back to old traits!
(but i just don't care.)

#4 I'm not gonna cut my hair short anymore! i need to fight the urge(:

#5 UOL's invigilation was fun! i finally get to see all the stressed up
and fucked up faces of students struggling with exams! HAHAHHA im evil.

#6 Meeting up with jingyi, bana and hanafi on friday was great.
awesome chill out, sometimes the best thing is to gather and ____ your life away.

#7 Weekends was spent at home. finally a decent one where it's not burnt with tuition.

#8 Cravings are hard to resist!!):

#9 Somebody should just prove to me that i'm wrong, but well who cares?

#10 Planning another getaway at the end of may again!
but first, i've to change my primary 5 passport photo away LOL

#11 I don't know is it just me, but i think he's cute.

#12 I'm scared of turning into a pink freak!):

#13 Indulging in midnight sun.

goodnight.

getaway to genting & sunway lagoon

2009-05-09T10:35:00.003+08:00

it was a perfect blast.
enjoying the trip with awesome company,
trying all sort of thrilling rides,
becoming 'more courageous' like what ive been saying,
i swear the trip was an enjoyable one!
but im suffering from sun burnt and body ache up till now,
aargh, this part i detest! lol

030509 SUNDAY DAY ONE.
x woke up at freaking 5.30am
x made our way down to golden mile
x 6.30am we bid singapore goodbye
x 7am, custom check and i was detained.
fuck, cos of my passport photo lah! freaking primary 5 picture,
luckily they let me off cos i told them i was still a student(:
x 2.30pm we reached genting and it was freezing cold pls!
x lunched at kenny rogers, food was normal only.
x check in to hotel
x shop & arcade & camwhore
x abel's birthday celebration @ marybrown
x caught THE SNIPER, lousy show.
x arcade and played with the huge heavy army guns
and caused my arms to ache like fuck!
x back to hotel, sleep.

040509 MONDAY DAY TWO.
x genting theme park.
(wtf!! i took the space shot (freaking 15 story high! i was scared out of my wits!)
plus all the thrilling rides, swear my heart became smaller after all those.
fucking awesome, fucking cool, fucking cold weather!)
x archery
x pool
x camwhore, poker cards & sleep.

050509 TUESDAY DAY THREE
x cab down to SUNWAY LAGOON
x oh shiok, the hotel was FABULOUS PLEASE!
x ice-skating
(oh fuck, i fell like 5 freaking times? now i know how to skate alr okay!!)
x shop & shop & shop
x pub

060509 WEDNESDAY DAY FOUR
x sunway lagoon theme park
(oh goodness, the rides were awesome pls! thrilling too.
enjoyed slacking at wave pool but those idiots had to push me into the water,
drank gulps of water pls!)
x shop & shop
x EUPHORIA, ministry of sound
(it sucks anyway!)
x pub

070509 THURSDAY DAY FIVE
x cab back to genting's bus terminal
x bid genting and sunway goodbye
x back to the little red dot
x daddy picked me up at golden mile.

here you go.
a summary of the trip.
pictures will be uploaded tonight i promised!
off to tuition now(:

back from genting & sunway lagoon

2009-05-08T00:54:00.002+08:00

it was freezing yet we still indulged in ice-cream!

finally i'm back in singapore.
genting & sunway lagoon was a complete blast.
with the scary theme park rides to archery, ice-skating, shooting games, sunway lagoon water theme park,
i swear i'm suffering from body ache and sun burnt!
AWWW, but nevertheless, the trip was fabulous.
freezing at genting,
warmth at sunway,
stay tuned for more updates tomorrow night(:
400plus pictures to be uploaded.
hahaha off to sleep cos i've to report for UOL's invigilation tomorrow.

closure of story, rbs.

2009-05-02T09:56:00.005+08:00

ROYAL BANK OF SCOTLAND, featuring temp staffs!

thursday, 30th april 2009,
my last day of work at Royal Bank of Scotland.
oh well,
coming to think of it where i've dreaded myself to work
for the past 3.5 months, i guessed all is worth it.
with fabulous manager who dotes on me so much,
where i was NEVER scolded before even though i come late everyday,
skipped work, go for long lunch break and all.
oh well, like he said, ' i really dote on you a lot!'
i'm really thankful to have such awesome manager,
guessed im really lucky after all.
next, with awesome colleagues who laugh and joke with me all the time,
covering up my mistakes and getting me out of trouble,
i swear they are all an awesome bunch of colleagues.
fraud control unit, i will remember all of them(:

then, it was making friends with the other temp staffs from other departments
and i swear the bonding we had were strong
(and we wonder why too!)
laughing at all our silly jokes,
and lotus notes each other every minute,
oh gosh, all these will be greatly missed by me i swear.
it's really a good experience having worked in a bank,
where i really learnt a lot of things, and been exposed to many cases.
thankful for this chance,
and now, with the closure of chapter RBS,
what's next?
time for a good rest after so much hard work!
genting, tomorrow till thurs night(:
i seriously cant wait.
it's gonna be mega fun i swear!

and before i forgot to mention,
a colleague of mine wrote me an ultra mushy poem
that i've never seen in my whole life.
all the rbs people laughed pls.
ultra embarrassing, but still i love every single one of them!(:
waiting for the k-box session after my genting trip.
ken.chinhan.jake.john.michell.michael.pekpheng.willy.
my department is small, but awesomely fun.
imagined my last day of work was spent bitching with my manager and supervisor.
HAHAHA
in conclusion,
im just an ultra slack worker doted by my managers and colleagues.
aww, they're so sweet can(:
missed.

sidetrack a little,
some random pictures for you!

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meanwhile,
listen to my current favourite song while i'm off to genting and sunway lagoon.
stay tuned for more(:
will blog if there's wireless.
missed.

The little acts

2009-04-27T00:39:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder how can I survived to be such workaholic?
Imagine 5 tuition sessions today,
But I survived!
One thing to note, all the parents are superbly nice,
Making herbal tea, red bean soup etc for me,
Aww touching lah!!(:
But I've been coughing so much lately, depressing!
Anyways 4 more days of rbs to go!
Freedom, I smell (:

The perfect scene.

2009-04-26T09:07:00.002+08:00

Awfully sick , where my throat hurts badly!
Tuition today, from 10am to 10pm,
Superwoman ,me?
Oh wells, thanks to the mid year exams and my departure to genting!
Yes, one more week(:

And I just woke up from an ultra sweet dream,
Awwwww loved. Hahaha

Of random bitchings

2009-04-23T18:58:00.002+08:00

I feel that I'm being very sarcastic,
but well, who cares?
At least I did tolerate such nonsense for a week.
I'm impressed with myself.

topsy turvy

2009-04-21T20:26:00.008+08:00

' as long as you're safe '

Hectic weekend

2009-04-19T15:40:00.005+08:00

Friday.
x met up with vic and jixiang after work
x major catching up, ton at amk.

Saturday.
x tuition all the way till 830):
x ehub with Ah G(miss kwan) for fast and furious 4
(fabulous show, damn awesome)
x impromptu decision to zirca to meet 915 ppl
(cool shit, except the music suck, but well, I still enjoyed drinking!)
x homed bout 3.30am and died in bed.
x fabulous night

Sunday
x devoted to tuition ): two more lessons to go!!

Time for a little nap, yawns.
And how can I forget to mention about my new pink adidas jacket!?
Loving it but it's so not my colour!
Laughs

batam trip with kenneth

2009-04-11T15:50:00.025+08:00

BATAM TRIP - 10/04/09 - 11/04/09

oh well,
the mini getaway to batam with kenneth was indeed awesome(:
totally enjoyed myself,
shopping, shopping and more shopping!
our legs totally ache by the time we get back to hotel,
oh gosh! imagine we shopped till 12midnight (sing time!)
hahaha!
plus the fact when camwhores get together,
it just resulted in 108 pictures
(actually there's more, but was all deleted by him!)
okay, now i shall get down to the details(:

met up at habourfront with ken for departure.
headed over to find jingyi and weihow who were going batam too!
0940 we left them and headed off to the money changer
and instantaneously, we became millionaires!! hahaha
board the ferry,
and in an hour or so,
we found ourselves queueing up at the custom of indonesia.
hahaha queue was exceptionally long
given that there were so many singaporeans like us, heading over to batam!
hahaha
finally, after the long wait,
we cabbed down to our hotel - NOVOTEL hotel.

oh man,
i must emphasized the fact that it's the best hotel ever.
room number 461
the bed's ultra soft,
the room was big. aww man, i totally love it(:
plus the numerous tv channels ranging from cartoon network to HBO? lol
rest and pack up,
and we headed over to the MEGAMALL to dine at A&W!!!
(oh gosh, been long since we last ate that lah!!!
and then our shopping spree begins.

shop & spend
arcade
camwhore
shop & spend
camwhore
shop & spend
jco donuts for tea break
and we headed off to Nygoya Hill and continued our shopping spree.
just imagined,
we repeated this shop, spend, arcade, camwhore schedule
from 12 to 11 ?? LOl
we're ultra shopaholics i swear(:
then dinner at some steak restaurant (forgot the name!)
and the food there was good!
plus i must comment that the services in all the shops
were ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS!

feeling shagged,
we cabbed back to our hotel and there,
off to dreamland!(:
next morning,
i wonder why some idiot have to wake me up at freaking 6am!!
hahaha but lazy me just ignored him.
got up at 8am?? FREAKING EARLY PLSS!
breakfast
packed up
camwhore
check out.
off to batam ferry terminal and we were like 1 hr 40 mins early??!!!
credits to kenneth pls!
hahaha

so we headed over to megamall again,
and this fellow went back to his FAVOURITE SHOP - number 61
and got another top. hahaha
then it was time to bid batam goodbye
and get back to our little red dot.
ferry, and we were dead shagged i swear(:

finally singapore.
and funny encouter occurred at dfs when he attempted to buy alcohol
and the sales person stopped him!
HAHHAHAHA
aww poor thing lahh!
after that,
headed off to train station and home sweet home.
now i'm like uploading all the pictures,
aww man! so many many hahaha!
totally enjoyed myself lah, although it's kind of short
but we managed to spend all our million dollars away hahaha

did i mention this boy here has become an indo boy?
he was huming all the indo songs
and we even made friends with a taxi uncle HAHAHHA
awesome experience.
fun time(:
i love this kind of mini getaway hahaha

next up,
genting plus sunway lagoon with brotherhood(:

Mini getaway - batam

2009-04-09T22:03:00.002+08:00

Off to batam tomorrow morning (:
A good time for me to relax, back on saturday!
Stay tuned.

LONG VS SHORT?

2009-04-08T00:17:00.001+08:00

rebonded my hair today,
ah yes, i love the soft, straight and silky feel.
i love my hair.
now, the next big thing,
SHOULD I SNIP IT OFF, SHORT?(:

i cant wait, i just cant wait

2009-04-06T08:18:00.004+08:00

she cried, cos i'm no longer tutoring her ):

The hectic weeks of my busy schedule
are definitely the caused of my disappearance from the blogging lifestyle.
I can't wait till the getaway with brothers on 3rd may(:
after all, i seriously deserve a break.
More updates soon , I promised.

some days you just need to club your life away

2009-03-29T18:00:00.010+08:00

x overtime @ RBS was alright
though the idea of having to go back on saturday turns me off.
x met up with heibais was incredibly awesome,
with jingyi, sharbana, hanafi, hilmi, nigel, nadiah, taufiq, nelly, ray and zulfika.
x zamzam for prata
x haji lane for sheesha and poker games
x got sabotaged like twice, ohh swayness.
x arcade and pool @ marina square
(there, they teased me for being a lianlian)
x impromptu decision to club. oh fuck, fucking under dressed.
x impromptu decision to clubmarc for a pair of flats
x off to THE ARENA.
oh man fucking high.
the live band,
the music -the dj was damn good!
the company - bana, jingyi, bana's relatives,
the dance floor - awesomely high!
i totally enjoyed myself the whole damn night
but i left about 4 plus given the fact that i've tuition the next day!):
x but it's okay, wednesday again.
x clubbing spree, club my life away(:

it's been long since i last enjoyed myself so much
and i was awesomely happy without thinking of you, last night(:
i need to get a life, a brand new one.
& i've got the urge to snip off my hair suddenly,
should i?

when i grow up

2009-03-23T17:00:00.005+08:00

skipped work today even though i know my workload is piling,
i just feel like taking a rest.
it feels good just resting at home,
indulging in cable tv,
random blog surfing,
downloading music and stuffs,
oh man, this was the life i used to live,
and i seriously missed it!

but now,
being twenty,
i seriously need to know what's coming up next,
i need to plan for my future.
so first thing first,
it boils down to the primary school essay question
'what i want to be when i grow up?'
- this i seriously don't know.

knowing more than just what it seems.

2009-03-21T22:53:00.002+08:00

Guess it's time to do a little update on my life
since the previous entries are all about my new love, Edward.

work is rather hectic
for i'm encouraged to do ot for almost everyday,
but well, given my busy schedule,
i could only pull it off for at most two days? hahaha
29 more days till my contract ends,
i seriously can't wait though(:
and to top things off,
due to all these energy consuming activities,
i've been sleeping before the clock strikes 12 everyday.
HAHAHA

wednesday 18/03/09.
x work is as insane as ever, having to call more than 300 people per day.
x clubbing plans got cancelled cos we had to rush daddy to A&E.
(poor him, got 4 stitches on his finger. hahhaa )
x new moon and off to dreamland.

thursday 19/03/09.
incredible off day, like finally.
x breakfast at changi village with family,
(dim sum was great(: )
x visit to doctor
x sim for registration
x new moon, then dreamland

friday 20/03/09.
x work plus ot please!
(i surprised everyone by staying for ot, my manager got a shocked lol)
x caught 'COMING SOON' with lixing
(fucking scary, i swear i screamed like crazy!)
x ken's place for twilight
(awww, my edward cullen. but i still prefer the book lah!)

saturday 21/03/09.
x tuition
x gave brotherhood gathering a missed, sorry!
next week i promised lah(:
x im gonna end it off later with new moon again.

realized a trend? there's a dose of edward every night before i sleep.
hahaha
and im wondering if i should tell you the truth,
that i know more than what you think.
should i?